It’s a BOY!!

The baby is here! We’re all waiting in the waiting room before we can go and actually see the baby and momma.

I cannot wait. I’m so pumped! We’ll finally learn the name too! My sister and her husband have been keeping the name a secret the whole time. So I can’t wait!

So excited!!!

Official Student and Baby Watch

I’m officially going back to school to finish my degree in psychology!

Due to my PTSD, anxiety, and depression along with my many other mental health issues, I was forced to take a hiatus from school. That short term break turned into 6 years.

But I’m going back now! It’s totally online, 100%, which I love. It’s perfect for someone like me.

Baby Watch.

My sister is pregnant and is due to be induced later this week because she’s so far past her due date that she just can’t stand it anymore.

They haven’t told us the name, but we do know that it’s a boy. So I’m going to be an aunt. I’m going to have a nephew to spoil rotten and even though I can’t emote that publicly and show how excited I really am (mental health issues), I am truly very excited. And nervous. I’ve never really been around babies much, but this is one I get to spoil and send home to their parents on a sugar high!

So that’s my fun news of the week! I’m going back to school, and I’m going to be an aunt!

Anyone else with exciting news? Or boring news? News of any nature really…

It’s God-breathed

Whenever I say God says this or He wants this, I like to back it up with the bible verse where I learned it. I like that because it’s saying, “It’s not from me but from God.” So people can’t say it’s my interpretation of it. I can say no, look, it’s right here in black and white. And if you’re a Christian then you believe that the Bible is 100% correct, that it is “God-breathed.”

“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” – 2 Timothy 3:16-17

But there’s a difference, and it’s important to me that anyone reading this understands. I am not judging anyone! I’m not telling anyone they’re wrong. I try to only say what the Bible says and whatever or however anyone takes that is up to them. Because I genuinely believe that I have no right (to paraphrase) to point out the splinter in someone else’s eye and ignore the log in my own.

I try to only say what the Bible says is right and what is wrong. I certainly expect anyone who cares about me to call me out on things where I’m wrong. Because when you care about someone, you want them to do well and following God’s will is doing well. And people calling me out includes anyone who’s reading this right now. If I’m doing something wrong, I want and need someone to tell me. There’s your permission if you feel you need it. This blog is for discussion, not lecturing (even though it may read like I’m lecturing you, I’m really lecturing myself I promise).

All of Me

I’m well aware that I posted about this only a few months ago, but sometimes change is radical and quick and doesn’t slowly occur over time. That’s what happened to me – an abrupt about-face.

After posting Fun Facts about myself, something happened. I can’t really explain it and don’t really feel like trying, but things in my life changed. Not only do I not read Tarot for clients or friends anymore, but I don’t read for myself either. In fact, I’ve put my decks away in a box and buried it underneath a whole pile of other crap I need to find something to do with. Why the dramatic change?

Because I spent some serious time in the Bible lately and I’ve had an epiphany of sorts. God wants me to come to Him for the answers that I used to go to the cards for. And if He doesn’t give an answer, then the answer is “not right now.” It’s simple but has had a profound effect on my life.

I feel the need to post this because I don’t want someone else to follow my path. I made a mistake and need to rectify it. I won’t be a stumbling block for someone else. Which is why I don’t plan on selling my decks (though I could get a lot of money for them) and I don’t plan on giving them away or donating them. I intend to throw them away or destroy them somehow.

“But you must be careful so that your freedom does not cause others with a weaker conscience to stumble. For if others see you-with your “superior knowledge”-eating in the temple of an idol, won’t they be encouraged to violate their conscience by eating food that has been offered to an idol? So because of your superior knowledge, a weak believer for whom Christ died will be destroyed. And when you sin against other believers by encouraging them to do something they believe is wrong, you are sinning against Christ.” ~ 1 Corinthians 8:9-12

So I’m publicly admitting my wrongdoings and am doing my best to change it. Reading those verses, and others, brought chills to my spine. Something inside of me just said that Tarot is wrong because it’s bringing me to something other than God for advice, guidance, wisdom. God wants us to go to Him for these things and more.

This is me doing a “recall” on my Fun Facts post. I’m not telling anyone what to do, I’m just saying what I believe. If you’re a believer of Christ and don’t think Tarot is wrong, I challenge you to really read His Word and tell me it’s okay to do. Because what I read says it isn’t. I still read the cards and read the Bible and prayed, but God didn’t want just a piece of me, He wants all of me. He wants all of you too.

OMG

Lately I’ve been trying to clean up my act. Mostly meaning I’m trying to not swear so much. I have a nephew coming later this month and either a niece or nephew later in the year. I don’t want to be teaching them how to swear and I don’t think their parents would like that so much either. So I’m trying to watch what I say very carefully.

In doing so, I’ve noticed that a lot of times the things that come out of my mouth are negative. That got me really noticing the things that I think are negative. How does this affect me and those around me? I can’t exactly put it into words but I can tell you one thing, it’s not a good thing. And frankly, it’s just not very nice, but I don’t think I’m a mean person. But I’m very negative, and why? Because my thinking isn’t aligned with God.

The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell. … With the tongue we praise out Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. ~ James 3:6,9,10

It isn’t just that swearing is frowned upon and pessimism is negative and frustrates those around us. Scripture says that it’s evil and it and can change the course of our lives! Reading that is so disturbing. It’s disturbing because I’ve been pessimistic my entire life and swearing for most of it. The whole time I’ve thought that being a pessimist is just part of my personality, not something I could change.

Granted, changing my view will be difficult, but like the Bible says, with God all things are possible. Swearing will be difficult to stop, especially when it’s a reaction. Like just now my little bag of sunflower seeds toppled over on to the couch and I swore immediately. I can only imagine how difficult it’s going to be driving. I mean, no one in my city knows how to drive, that’s the only explanation!

As a Christian, I’m supposed to be Christ-like. People should see me and know my faith. But I don’t think they do. I’d bet all my money they didn’t. Mostly because of what comes out of my mouth! Which is saddening to me.

For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. ~ Luke 6:45

Seeing everything in such a negative light isn’t good either. Here’s what Scripture says about that (specifically Jesus):

The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. ~ Matthew 6:22,23

But there’s hope. With God, all things are possible. I can change my ways. It’ll be hard and probably take a long time and I’ll still slip up because:

…no human being can tame the tongue… ~ James 3:8

That doesn’t mean we shouldn’t stop trying. So I won’t stop, but I’ll know that my mistakes won’t mean I should give up.

While swearing and negativity is my problem, I can say that using the Lord’s name in vain (which in my humble opinion is worse than just a swear word), like the commonly used OMG phrases, isn’t something I struggle with. Maybe part of that is from being born and raised in the south.

So I guess my point is I’m saying all of this to hold myself accountable for trying to swear less and see the world in a different light because I don’t want to pass that on to my nephew and nephew/niece coming. It’ll take a while, so I have to start now. It’ll be hard, but I have hope and help and explicit instructions from Scripture.

You’re more than welcome to try this with me. I don’t think it could hurt.