After all the work and time and preparing I’ve done, now I have to wait. I’m used to instant gratification. It’s a nice concept, except when it isn’t. I’ve done the work, made things, listed them (still making things). Now I’m waiting for buyers. All the excitement is gone. Not gone, but severely diminished. I know logically that it wasn’t going to be like I list all the things and people start buying them immediately, immediate success, but I think I had just that kernel of hope that it would. Just that small bit of unrealistic expectations has been enough to completely derail me.
Right now, I think it’s different because I’ve set up a “craft table.” Every morning when I let the puppy outside I walk past it. And I can’t not touch the beads. There’s something about the feel of them, like putting your hand in a jar of marbles. It’s the only way I can think to describe it, but feeling them makes me want to do something. That’s how I’ve ended up making things. It’s all right there, one spot, out in the open and I just can’t resist! Besides, having an Etsy shop gives me a good excuse to keep buying more things!
I know I’m not alone in that – doing something and then expecting immediate results instead of waiting for the reward of success in the end. I think some of us (me included before) have prayed and asked for something from God and when there isn’t an immediate response or answer we understand, we get frustrated and give up.
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us – whatever we ask – we know that we have what we asked of him. — 1 John 5:14,15
The Israelites were in the dessert 40 years before they reached the land God had promised for them. I know it’s not going to be 40 years. But I think it’s a good comparison. 40 years,, 400 years of slavery before what God had promised Abraham and Isaac and Jacob came to be.
So, a few days? a few weeks? That’s nothing.
If we ask for things that are in accordance with Him, we’ll get it. God, the creator of the universe, who can hold the oceans in his hands, will take care of us. But he wants us to come to him. It’s something I’m learning and writing helps me process. This is me processing and I’m sharing.