Time Travel!

Safety Not Guaranteed is a cute little movie about time travel (like the picture says)… So this movie has Aubrey Plaza, Jake Johnson, Karan Soni, and Mark Duplass in it. I saw it on Netflix a long time ago and I don’t want to give away any spoilers… I haven’t been able to find it again, but if you can you should definitely watch it! It’s just a good, happy movie that I absolutely adore!

If you find it somewhere, let me know! I’d love to watch it again!

Another Beginning…

…this one less pleasant.

It’s the start of a new semester. This time I’m taking Abnormal Psychology so it’s something I’ll definitely be interested in. I was interested in ASL too, but the work of it made it less interesting to me if that makes sense. Abnormal psych though is a part of my life so learning more about it shouldn’t be too much of a hardship.

I went online and looked at the ratings of my professor. I’m not so sure it was a good idea. It’s got me super nervous. You know it said all the worst things, lots of work, tests every week, professor doesn’t answer emails (and being an online school that’s definitely a big issue), etc. It’s just got me concerned and I’m trying not to think about it. But it’s hard.

How have you coped with a difficult professor? (If she’s anything like her reviews, I’ll definitely be giving a detailed end of semester survey!)

The End and the Beginning

It’s finally the end of the semester. I scraped by in ASL, it’s true. It was much more difficult and a lot more work than I expected. But it wasn’t unreasonable. However, it wasn’t easy for someone with the conditions that I have to have to Skype video chat with different strangers two times a week. After a few times of trying and it not getting better, but worse, I made the decision to not participate in that activity. So that hurt my grade a lot. I believe if I had continued with the video calls that I would have received an A. But I’m perfectly happy with my B.

At the same time, we’re moving. It’s the beginning of what feels like a new life for me. Where (hopefully) I won’t have such crippling anxiety to even go to the front yard and check the mailbox. In a more superficial way, I’ll be less pale because we have a pool! And I plan on spending the summer in it! Already, as I’m writing this I’ve got my suntan lotion on and I’m just waiting for my phone to finish charging so I can use it to listen to some music and just hang out by the pool.

It’s really a great relaxer and really takes my mind off the things that are happening in the world. Like coronavirus. Like loosening the restrictions and people thinking we’re all okay and then we have another break out. I live in the place in Alabama where coronavirus cases are growing the fastest, so it being a concern of mine doesn’t seem so far fetched. But I’m not completely freaked out by it. Because I’m careful. I try to avoid people (usually do that anyway) and I wash my hands (which I also do anyway).

Moral of the story: semester’s over, moved in to new house, and most importantly WASH YOUR HANDS!!

Crazy Times!

I haven’t posted in a while. Why? So many reasons…

  1. Coronavirus has been crazy! It’s really starting to get to me, but I know that I’m really quite lucky considering everything that’s going on.
  2. School. This ASL class has a ton of work involved. Lots of making videos and video chats with different people which causes me a lot of anxiety. Without thinking about it I tend to avoid the things that make me anxious. So there’s procrastination galore. Which causes more stress about actually getting things done.
  3. Moving. There’s a lot involved. Now there’s the official stay-at-home order, curfew… limited groceries, lots of stuff (more than I imagined)… issues at the new house, problems at the old house (gah!)
  4. Work. Will we keep our jobs? Will we lose them? We will have to take a pay cut? This is my dream home, but it’s very possible that we made a mistake buying when we did, right as coronavirus hit us here…

Basically, there’s a ton going on. There’s worries about people keeping jobs… My brother already lost his thanks to the ‘rona and with a new baby I think things are going to be getting tight over in his household so if you pray, pray for those who are struggling and can’t see the end in sight.

Right now, I really just feel overwhelmed, stressed, and stupid. That’s where I’m at so for the quality of this blog I’ve decided to take a little break until I can get everything else somewhat under control.

If it’s possible, I’ll try to post a little something now and then… but don’t hold your breath.

Good luck to everyone! I hope you all keep your jobs or get a different job with better pay that you actually like (hopefully this happens to my brother soon)! Stay safe! And stay at home!

House Hunting Pt. 2

We’ve got a house!

WE’VE GOT A HOUSE!!

It’s in the process stage now, but the owners have accepted our offer so it’s pretty much ours! After searching for the right house for sooo long…

I knew the moment we were in the house that I loved it. Walking around it, checking out the rooms, the yard, the pool (and hot tub!), the upstairs, the front doors, everything, I knew that this was THE house.

It’s the house and it’s ours! I can’t wait to actually be in the house (skip the actual packing and moving of all our things). This summer, I’ll be burning by the pool in the backyard and cooling off in the pool. I cannot wait. I’m so excited!

More British Crime

Luther, starring Idris Elba. One of my favorite shows. I can go back and watch it again and again. It’s intense, but good. Even the “villain” (Ruth Wilson) is one of my favorite characters! It’s just good.

In later seasons (which you can find them all on Amazon Prime Video), one of the characters gets killed off and it just gets to me like no other crime show does. I’ll begrudgingly admit that yes, I did cry when this particular character dies (no spoilers!).

It is intense, a little dark, heavy, but so good. There are a lot of recognizable faces in there. Luther’s friend, DCI Ian Reed, actually plays the cheerful nephew of Scrooge in The Muppet Christmas Carol (which is a Christmas movie my family has watched every year for as long as I can remember). Luther’s boss, Saskia Reeves, has been in many other British crime shows, but just in episodes not any recurring role.

I guarantee, watch the first episode and you’ll be hooked. Make it through the first season and you’ll be begging for more! (I’m currently re-watching this series as I write this.). Watch it! Let me know what you think! Like if you’ve seen it before!

Technology is not my friend

My ASL 1 class has just started. Since it’s online we meet our professor and other “mentors” (other people who also teach ASL who we practice with) via Skype.

I may have mentioned this before, but technology is not my friend. I can do some things, but a lot is over my head. For example, I just rejoined Facebook as a way to be involved in the Deaf community while in quarantine (thank you COVID-19). There is so much about it that I just don’t understand and don’t know how to do things. I try to stay off it because I don’t want to do the wrong thing somehow and post something or something like that and embarrass myself with it.

Needless to say, Skype is also over my head. I just recently received a 0 because I couldn’t get my Skype to work to contact my mentor with whom I had scheduled the weekly meeting as per instructed. I hate making bad grades. I mean, I hate it. With my anxiety over other things, bad grades on top of it just stresses me out. When I get stressed out, I shut down. I sleep a lot. I don’t do things. I avoid, avoid, avoid. So that’s what’s been happening for me.

I’ve got a new appointment with a mentor scheduled for this week and hopefully I’ll have figured it out and don’t miss it again. Other than my issues with technology, I’m loving the class, learning the new signs and everything. So interesting and the nerd in me says fun too!

Movie Friday!

This week, it’s a horror/sci-fi/thriller movie from 2008, Cloverfield.

I’ve never heard about it anywhere. Honestly, I can see why. Maybe it was advertised, I don’t know. It’s one of those recovered footage type films. But I have to admit, I did find it entertaining (but then I’ll watch almost anything).

It’s found footage of a going away party turned into disaster. It takes place in New York City. Some big thing happens (trying to avoid spoilers), people wonder if it’s another terrorist attack on the city, then it might be a wrecked oil tanker. Anyway, the film starts in the going away party and follows the main group as they go searching for a missing friend deeper into the city, where everyone is being evacuated. So naturally, bad things happen. What I remember as I’m rewatching it right now (my posts are queued), I have to admit the guy holding the camera, Hud, I find to be hilarious as he narrates everything that’s happening.

As for the people in the film… there are a lot of recognizable faces, but you might not know them from a specific show/movie. So I’ll throw out some names and links. The “main” guy, Rob, isn’t anyone I’ve seen before. But the guy who plays his brother is someone I’ve seen many times but can’t recall any specifics. His name is Mike Vogel. There’s his girlfriend, Lily, who’s played by Jessica Lucas. And everyone’s friend and the biggest name I think in the movie, Marlena, played by Lizzy Caplan, who has been a star in many things. Then, of course, my favorite character, Hudson ‘Hud’ who isn’t anyone that I know but I think he deserves to be mentioned. Hud is played by T.J. Miller. You may have seen him in something, if you have comment below!

Overall, I’d say the movie is mildly entertaining. I was never on the edge of my seat, but I did laugh a few times. So if there’s nothing else on but Cloverfield is playing, you might want to give it a go (maybe while you’re also doing something else).

Moment By Moment

I heard, or rather read, something recently that hit me. You know sometimes you can hear something a thousand times and it doesn’t sink in, but one day you hear it and it does — whether it’s a different phrasing or you’re ready to hear it. That’s what happened to me.

Being a Christian, I think of all the things I have to do to be a “good” Christian. But what I heard struck me. I can’t remember the exact phrasing, so I’ll paraphrase it. Every day is a decision to follow Jesus. That hit me. Instead of thinking of the whole big picture which overwhelms me and makes me feel like giving up and why even bother when I know I’m going to fail already? But looking at it as a choice every day made all the difference in the world.

Each day in the morning I wake up and open the Bible app. I read a devotional and listen to the audio version of the Bible verses being discussed. Then I tell myself, “Today I’m going to follow Jesus and do what He would do.” Of course, I still fail in small ways if that makes sense.

My mother always says, “How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time,” to me whenever I get stressed out about something I have to do. That’s what it is. Take each day as it comes. Don’t worry about tomorrow or the day after.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own.

Matthew 6:34 NIV

Facebook and ASL

My new ASL (American Sign Language) class just started yesterday. Since it’s online, the coronavirus has no effect on the class.

Part of the requirements of the class is getting involved in the deaf community. That part is kind of ruled out for now, so I thought about it and how I could get my hours involved in the deaf community. This is what was suggested to me: Facebook.

Ah, the dreaded Facebook. I haven’t had a Facebook account in 10 years. I don’t like Facebook. But it had to be done. So I now have a Facebook account. People I haven’t spoken to in years are friend requesting me. Parents of friends I had when I was growing up are friend requesting me. I don’t know what to do about that, so the requests are being ignored for now. I found some groups and joined, or pages – whatever.

I don’t like having a Facebook but if it’s the only/best way to get involved with the deaf community at the moment, I’ll suck it up and do it.

I guess my point with this post is to say I’m putting myself out there on Facebook and that it makes me extremely uncomfortable. Next, that my ASL class has started and I’m thrilled. I can’t wait to learn the language.

Anyone else out there learning ASL? or interested in ASL?